as of this "typing", evrybody i know in the cyberworld thinks i'm dead...

yeah, you read that right... DEAD...

that is such an evil thing for me to do... almost everyone's hoping that ithe news ain't true, that this is just one of the tests that i'm so fond of... but technically, this is true...

i died sunday night, october 3, 2004... the reason? because of my most beloved girlfriend... i thought i've lost her that night... i kept calling her up, wanting to explain everything but she won't listen to me... so i immediately went online and publicly announced my death...

i ran up to the bedroom and grabbed my gun... i was about to pull the trigger when my cousin barged in the room and knocked the gun out of my hand...

damn, that was close...

the two of us argued like hell after that... i got the usual long sermon from her... she kept telling me that it ain't worth taking my life and that maybe my girlfriend was just in a state of shock at the moment which is why she won't talk to me...

well, what she said was true...

my girl got to read the announcement the same night and she kinda panicked... she kept texting me... of course, i did not reply to her messages...

and that's the night my cyberlife ended...

the next day, one of the forums i belonged to was in a rampage... let's just say that i have a reputation in that forum... kinda highly respected and stuff like that... they were all asking themselves whether my death is true or not...

but among them, i really pity my dear "shobe"... sure, she ain't my real younger sister but she's really close to me... i don't know but her emotions were pretty genuine to me... she was really worried and she can't seem to handle the news...

just this morning, i can't keep the truth anymore... i mean, my girlfriend was already going insane! i was really afraid that she might commit suicide herself... and knowing her, that's really possible... so i texted her and told her i'm still alive... that i just "almost" died... oh man! i can feel how happy she really was!

the thing is, i can't just "resurrect" and pop out of nowhere out of such a bogus announcement... that means, i can't go back to the forums anymore, no more friendster bulletin board posts and e-mails...

i saked my girlfriend to keep my existence a secret... once people find out that i'm still alive, that will definitely destroy me... it will ruin my credibility... i don't care about my reputation... my pride matters more...

at least i have my girlfriend with me... she's the only one who knows that i ain't lying inside a crypt...