Wednesday, February 23, 2005
first and foremost, the title's not a typo... that's because this entry will be all about my twin cousin, les! i've been thinking about it this morning, while i was on my way to school... my cousin deserves some recognition in this online journal! after all, i've practically spent my whole life with her! other than that, i just want to laugh my head off... hehehe... so get ready! LES PSYCHOLOGY: 1. obviously, she has no gender... don't ask her why unless you want her to knock you out. 2. if she's in a bad mood, it means its gonna be a full moon soon... 3. if she's in a really bad mood, it means she's gonna have her monthly period soon... 4. she ain't afraid to speak her mind, whether she's talking to the very person that she might offend... 5. once she's really pissed off, get out of her way or get ready for a mean trash talking... 6. although she doesn't admit it, she notices every cute guy... wow, she's really becoming a girl... 7. she jumps up and down and acts like a kid whenever she sees something she really likes... and that ranges from food to books... 8. silence only makes her talk... aloud... 9. she cries over anything... and i really mean anything... 10. after talking to her for an hour or so, she'll be able to talk exactly like you... 11. you'll hardly see her act like a girl... 12. her feminine voice is reserved for talking to highly respected people... thing is, she hardly respects anyone... 13. famous in class for her "ka-jologan" and singing "boulevard"... 14. she has her own vocabulary... 15. she makes up a nickname for everyone she likes... and hates... okay, i can't think of anything else... i'll just edit that later... so remind me, oh dear self! LES QUOTES: 1. "they say don't talk to strangers but everyone starts out as total strangers... so if i don't talk to strangers, then everyone will remain a stranger to me..." 2. "once in a blue moon lang ako ma-in love sa guy... but since the moon doesn't turn blue, i won't fall in love with a guy!" (i think the moon has now turned blue... :p) 3. when she's in her childish mode: "woookiieeessss..." (translated as "okay") 4. when she debates with terence and it involves money: "palibhasa mayaman ka kasi!" 5. "why are you still kalabiting me? i'm already making pansination na nga eh!" 6. after being a bridesmaid in our cousin's wedding: "that's the last time i'll ever wear a gown!" only to become the bridesmaid again for another cousin's wedding a few months after... 7. "sasagutin ko ang taong manliligaw sa akin at reregaluhan ako ng puso niya... literal na puso niya!" 8. "pag ako tumangkad... ibabaon kita sa lupa!" 9. when someone tells her "di ako ginaganyan ng nanay ko" she replies: "hindi mo ako nanay at hindi lahat ng tao eh nanay mo! welcome to the real world!" that's pretty much all i can think of right now... just hang out with les to find out more about my cousin a.k.a. hobbit! hahahaha!
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Sunday, February 20, 2005
note: my sisters still speak in japanese and a little english... in case you people wonder how come they speak in english all of a sudden, a little common sense please...my sisters practically dragged me out of bed this morning... *saki shakes me, to make sure i wake up immediately* rina: onichan!!! take us to the mall! now! me: *stirs* i'm tired... *tries to close my casket but saki keeps slapping my arm* saki: please! you haven't spent time with us for so long! and so i lost to my beloved sisters... decided to take them to southmall (with me on crutches and all) since its near our place... well, we did the usual stuff... strolled, went to the arcade (with saki beating me at tekken tag for the first time) and pigged out (hahaha!)... but the best thing happened when we decided to watch a movie... rina: onichan, let's watch constantine! saki: yeah! we know you've been wanting to see that... me: can't we watch phantom of the opera instead? saki: you haven't seen it yet?! you?! of all people?! we figured you've already seen it... rina: and we've already watched that for four times! me: oo, napanood ko na! but, care to watch it for the fifth time with your brother? rina: but onichan! me: but what? hey, we haven't went out for such a long time... and saki, when was the last time you watched a movie with me? come on! you're always with your guys... how about with your brother this time? saki: do you really have to mention that? *saki and rina kick my crutches at the same time... i fall face first on the floor* rina: *grins* now we watch phantom of the opera... not so typical of them though... but i don't care... i missed them! i just think that's because they are no longer the good old kids i've always looked after... they are all grown up...
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Thursday, February 17, 2005
after three days of acting like a parrot (try saying "this is josh valmont, your SAMA KA assistant secretary!" repeatedly and you'll definitely feel like a parrot) and two days of ratting on my own political party, i'm back! wondering why? i'm fuckin' grounded! enough explanation... well, it's been a really hectic week because of the campaign... missed a lot of my classes so now i gotta cram... thank heaven for whoever invented the xerox machine! i'm naturally lazy so you guys can't blame me... the genius within me has died 10 epochs ago... okay, i know i've been having a tough time in school lately... mahirap mag-habol sa mga subject na alam mong ibabagsak mo na talaga... ang dami kasing demanding sa mundo... heh... but... les: dude! uwi na tayo! me: you go ahead... i still have to go to the library... les: library ka diyan! kailan ka pa natutong pumunta sa lib? bakla! may date ka no? me: haha! technically... les: technically... baka technologically! gago, grounded ka! me: no... i'll go to the library first... then... well... you know what happens next... les: alam mo dude, nagbago ka na talaga... astig pala ng effect niya sa'yo... pero pare, favor lang... me: yeah? les: bawasan mo yang pag-smile mo... di ako sanay... kinikilabutan ako! okay, maybe i'm not having such a splendid time in the other aspects of my life but i'm slowly working on it... well, inspired ako eh! jeez... that's not enough... what i'm trying to say is that i am in love... deeply in love... they say ang "bilis ng mga pangyayari"... guess they are right... but they can't blame us... honestly, i'm not sorry for falling in love with her and letting things happen at this pace... i'm happy with her and i love her... yun na yun eh! no need to elaborate... now don't ask why i'm called Cupid...
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Sunday, February 13, 2005
read on... batcave (my bedroom)lying where a dead man should be a ceiling that traps and seals me in four corners of both heaven and hell premonition of my fate's labyrinth
alter egos etched on the walls a small corner of mass destruction the entrance is not the way out mirrors creating the illusion
painted black and blue a small window for light to shine through cold and damp at times all this a product of my own design so close to the truth call it my life painted black and blue a bit of red created in dripping effect too too little light at day complete darkness for the night always alone
tall stack of words of experience battle of silence and sound it's time to indulge in diversion where the smiles once wound
painted black and blue a small window for light to shine through cold and damp at times all this a product of my own design so close to the truth call it my life painted black and blue a bit of red created in dripping effect too too little light at day complete darkness for the night always alone
only a clearing a process of healing in the sanctuary that is a shadow of my life
painted black and blue a small window for light to shine through cold and damp at times all this a product of my own design so close to the truth call it my life painted black and blue a bit of red created in dripping effect too too little light at day complete darkness for the night always alonei only realized that this morning... that if you get to see my bedroom, you are actually having a glimpse of my life...
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3:37 AM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
i hardly write songs in Tagalog so sorry if you won't like this one... Hintaytumatakbo ang oras di ba ang bilis? di ko naman hinahabol kaya pa magtiis minsan lang dumaan ayos sa tiyempo naghahanap ka rin ba? ganun kasi ako
paano ba yan? nahanap ko na yata ikaw na yata yun puwede na ba?
huwag nang kumontra di naman masama di ako nagmamadali hindi rin umaasa gusto ko lang ipakita na mahal kita ayos lang puwede namang idaan na lang sa... hintay...
kapa muna sa dilim wala akong alam malabong paningin titiyempo na lang
pero paano ba yan? nahanap ko na yata ikaw na yata yun puwede na ba?
huwag nang kumontra di naman masama di ako nagmamadali hindi rin umaasa gusto ko lang ipakita na mahal kita ayos lang puwede namang idaan na lang sa... hintay...that's still goin to undergo band criticism though so that'll definitely get edited... but i like it the way it is now... wait till you hear the guitar riffs and the drumbeat... hehehe...
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10:55 AM
Thursday, February 10, 2005
what's so wrong with being happy? have i no right to happiness?
damn it!
it was such a wrong move to keep on talking about it... another wrong move to keep this smile plastered on my face...
the signs were all there... my mom watching my back, dad calling me up way too often just to check on me... how stupid of me not to notice!
mom: you are always in a good mood lately
dad: son, when was the last time i saw you frown or wanting to kill someone?
now's a good time to ask me that again, dad...
this isn't the first time this thing happened... it has always been like this... year in, year out...
please, can't you guys just let me have this? let me keep this?
for a lookback...
(1998)
saki: onichan, here are your plane tickets... you leave next week...
me: why?
saki: because mom and dad knows how you feel right now...
(february 2004)
mom: break up with her! she isn't worth your time!
saki: onichan, just do what mom says... please...
(april 2004)
mom: stay there until you completely get her out of your life!
me: no! i won't let you do this to me again!
mom: leave her! why don't you just go with this new one? i like her for you... no, i want her for you...
(october 2004)
dad: your mother made a very wrong choice... and do you know how i feel right now? i'm very glad she did...
and here we go again... i just hope i can do something before they take this away from me...
let the countdown begin...
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2:12 AM
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
for weeks my friends have been complaining... they say the good old josh has vanished into thin air...
me: guys, daan lang muna ako sa church...
alex: malapit nang magunaw ang mundo!
me: shut up... i'm serious...
oliver: and kailan ka pa natutong pumasok ng simbahan? eh kung hindi lang required, parang invisible building lang yun sa'yo...
alex: and di ba props lang yang rosary and scapular mo? pati ba yan seryoso na rin?
me: yes...
them: malapit nang magunaw ang mundo!
so what if i'm back to my religious self? i only forgot all about that when i hated Him for causing me all my misery... well, i'm not miserable anymore... and i'm actually praying again...
they say that Lestat has been reduced to Louis (which i definitely don't agree with)... Lestat's still inside me, just supressed for now... he's pretty difficult to control nowadays...
another thing, they also tell me that the "God of Love" is back in business... is it my fault if i've been giving pretty decent advices to my lovestruck friends?
okay, okay... the point here is that i've been a good boy for the past few weeks (except for the fact that i still cut classes) and my friends are not used to it... les and shio are happy about it though...
heck...
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Monday, February 07, 2005
Crazy For You
Spongecola
Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers making the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one
I see you through the smoky air
Can't you feel the weight of my stare
You're so close but still a world away
What I'm dying to say, you bet
CHORUS
I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new
You'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you
Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Eye to eye we meet, no word at all
Slowly now we begin to move
Every breath I'm deeper into you
Send me to a standing still in time
If you read my mind, you'll see
CHORUS
I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new
You'll feel it in my kiss
You'll feel it in my kiss because I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you
CODA
And you know it's true, you know I'm crazy for you
And it's all brand new, you know I'm crazy for you
And you know it's true, I'm crazy, crazy for you
I'm crazy for you
You'll Be Safe Here
Rivermaya
Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine
And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall i be
Chorus:
Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here
Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong
And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe
Chorus:
When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here
Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart
When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here
In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here
When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here
joshie loves his plushie... yes he does... and he's happy with her...
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Saturday, February 05, 2005
YOU...
who for one special moment in my life became the very reason of my existence...
FLOOD
by angelo suarez
we have become estranged, you and i
as the stars no longer find the asphalt-gray
of streets, the somnolent moon your skin,
the sun the sibilance of speech. how we trmeble
now at the slightest hint of touch, the latch
of our desires reopening like a wound.
watch me now as i say: september's
resolute rains, you are water-fragments
descending as drops from manila's urban sky
thus, you are everywhere, dripping down walls
and sliding down roofs, filling every crease of road
and crevice of coil. and on the rise of flood
floats the carcass of memory, taking
the muddied form of muck, filthy plastic bags
venomous piss of rat. in this metropolitan marsh
where nothing is left but a squalid sight of swamps
soggy lampposts, the third-world remnants
of a storm, i dip my hands and dream of fish.
YOU...
i still think of you and what used to be... stupid, ne? considering that it was i who ended things between us...
but what really went wrong?
i guess i failed to fulfill my ultimate promise: "i love you with all my heart, for the rest of my life"... because i felt the love slowly die inside me...
all the arguments that happened almost everyday, the lack of trust, the loss of time for each other... just a few reasons i can mention right now...
but you told me so yourself, you are numb...
i guess that numbness included being numb to my longing for you, your coldness whenever we talk...
all these are only my speculations... and i know i will never know the real reason of what actually went wrong...
i told myself that i will never again do anything that will remind me of you... but i guess i cannot do that since i still have aki and all the other stuff you gave me... plus the fact that i named my kitten "aishi"...
i really loved you with all my heart... i tried to move heaven and earth for you, to prove how much i feel for you... yet you failed to see all that... you never believed the honesty of my heart...
people can attest that all i wanted was to love you, make you happy here with me...
what we had was something special, something i really treasured, something i have always believed would last far longer than forever... but like what you said, it was all just a dream... and all dreams come to an end... but it is a dream that i will always remember...
i had to end my insanity... i won't be a saint for being a martyr for love...
only a week left and its already valentine's day... yet i am not making any plans... not with you, at least... but it could have been you...
i do not hate you... you have made me weak... and this weakness taught me to surrender to these petty emotions...
someday you should realize that you cannot always have things your way...
still, thank you for the memories... i learned a lot from you... it may be just a dream but it was such a good dream...
i don't know if you'll get to read this though but i don't care...
i hope this will be the last time i'll do anything like this...
let the 3rd of june, 2004 be the day when i learned to forget everything about myself for the sake of the one i love...
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9:28 AM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
justin got inspired by some recent events so he came up with this...
Website (originally Magasin by the Eraserheads)
Nakita kita sa isang site sa net
Itim ang 'yong suot
At buhok mo'y blue
Isang cybercafe sa may Baclaran,
Napatingin, natulala
Sa iyong kagandahan.
Naaalala mo pa ba noong
tayo pang dalwa?
Sinasabi ko lagi, "sisikat ka."
Tumatawa-tawa ka pa,
Tinawag mo akong walanghiya
Maganda ka na talaga noon
Ngunit ngayon...
Hey
Iba na ang 'yong ngiti.
Iba na ang 'yong tingin.
Nagbago nang lahat sa'yo
Sana'y hindi nakita.
Sana'y walang problema
Pagkat kulang ang dala kong pera.
Pambili
Pambili sa mukha mong maganda.
Siguro ay may kotse ka na ngayon.
Rumarampa sa buong mundo.
Damit mo'y gawa ni Giordano.
Siguro'y malapit ka na ring sumali
Sa Supermodel
Of the Whole wide Universe.
Kasi...
Iba na ang 'yong ngiti
Iba na ang 'yong tingin
nagbago nang lahat sa'yo.
Sana'y hindi nakita
Sana'y walang problema
Pagkat kulang ang dala kong pera.
Nakita kita sa isang site sa net.
At sa sobrang gulat di ko napansin.
Bastos pala ang pamagat.
Dali-daliang inexplore
At ako'y namulat
Sa hubad na katotohanan.
Hey
Iba na ang 'yong ngiti
Iba na ang 'yong tingin
Nagbago nang lahat sa'yo.
Sana'y hindi nakita
Sana'y walang problema
Pagkat kulang ang dala kong pera.
Hey
Iba na ang 'yong ngiti
Iba na ang 'yong tingin
Nagbago nang lahat sa'yo
Sana'y hindi nakita
Sana'y Walang problema
Pagkat kulang ang dala kong pera.
Pambili
Pambili sa mukha mong maganda.
Nasaan ka na kaya?
Sana ay masaya
Sana sa susunod na website
Ay disente ka na.
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5:12 AM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
you're already free from the chains that held you bound for so long yet here you are, tracing the memories in your mind... as if it is a path you should go back to...
will you let yourself be defeated once more? have you already forgotten everything you have been through?
rest... you have to... you need to... you have been in the greatest battle of your life so far... the battle against your emotions... and you have succeeded...
what you did is right... let it go... let the memories go...
let her go...
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7:04 AM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
get a grip, valmont... damn you...
so irresponsible... spending most of your time in cyberspace, playing those online games and wasting your money in all those nonsense...
have you already forgotten the meaning of the word "study"? you cut classes almost everyday, always late for your first period class and even if you do attend, its either you eat or you sleep...
damn it!!!
now suffer the consequences...
you are on the brink of flunking 6 out of your 8 subjects, all of which are your MAJOR subjects (read: SCIENCE SUBJECTS!!)...
and you reason out by saying that you have always wanted to take up fine arts or masscom?
how stupid can you get?!
time to change... break the habit...
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