Saturday, April 29, 2006
i was already relaxing on my bed, watching tv and doing my best to keep my mind off her... i was damned irritated... first, at her mom for disturbing me... then, i was pissed off at her for making me worried sick... i then decided to go online and rant here in my blog... she went to the FC event at Asilo (its at UN Ave. in Manila) as a volunteer... i made sure she got there safe... at the same time, i kinda entrusted her to our friend soulsifter, especially about accompanying her home or at least giving her directions how to get back home... the event was up to 5 PM... i kinda assumed she'd be back home by 6:30 PM since its a saturday... and yes, i was expecting that she'll text me as soon as she gets back... it was already 7 PM, still no word from her... i was already panicking... i texted my friend with whom she's currently staying... after thirty minutes, there was still no reply... to finally calm myself down, i asked my friend to call up the house and ask if my girl has already got back... well, i got a satisfactory answer... and i lost my temper... online, i logged in to ym... i got two offline messages, both from her, apologizing for not being able to text or call me that is already safe at home... when i checked the time, she sent it to me at 10:16 PM... and i logged in an hour later... i almost shoved the keyboard onto the monitor... then i logged in at FC, to check on the event aftermath... and there was a post from my beloved... in her post, she apologized to me first before commenting regarding the event then apologized to me again... need i say i forgot about my rants? so, here i am, all cool and calm... and i still can't believe why i just can't stay mad at her... when she sweet talks me... when i see or just imagine her smile and her touch... i forget about everything else that's going on around me, she becomes my world and i melt with her...
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11:53 AM
Monday, April 24, 2006
i know this post will be deemed useless... there are just no words to describe how devastated i am right now... and that is just the tip of the iceberg... i'm just digging deep down to my soul to gather all the strength left in me so that i would be able to live another day in hopes of seeing her... because right now, i'm sinking deeper and deeper into the pit of despair, slowly losing all hope and sanity... they can't take her away from me... i will never allow it! they can do whatever they want but they will never find a way to separate us... i have faith in us, in our love... this is something i have lived my life for... if it also means that i have to die for it or because of it, then so be it... our families refuse to listen, to understand... they all believe we are not good for each other, that we are just ruining each other's lives with this stupidity we are indulging in... they demand that we end the relationship then stop any means of communication... that is worse than sending us to the death row... something inside me is telling me to give up... leaving her would relieve me of all the hassles and complications... it would make things easier for both of us... but no... i let that voice at the back of my head to dominate and take over... it may sound selfish but i refuse to leave her... no matter what the circumstances, i don't care... i just don't care at all... i love her... that is all i need to make me stay... with all that is left of me, i will fight until death consumes me whole... even if it means rotting in this pit for the rest of my life... because i know, we will both end up happy in heaven anyway...
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12:30 PM
Thursday, April 20, 2006
of unreliable technology uncontrollable disconnections and rare decent conversations a salute to the vision creativity, imagination and passion decreasing the radius sarcastically signals in the sky fade rain drowns the flame yet for the lack of wires assures a message sent the means do not always justify the end random thoughts due to boredom...
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10:39 AM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
i could make a song right now to describe exactly how i feel but i'm not in the mood to do so... yeah, its a serious case of lack of inspiration... and depession... i miss my wife so much that its killing me... i would love to go right up to her doorstep, bang on the door and just jump on her the moment she opens it... this whole situation is not really helping me enjoy the summer... i desperately need to be with her... then there is the probabilty that dad will take the whole family to the province... damn it... that has just increased the distance between us! now i wish i just took the damned tickets to japan and accepted the fact that they want me exiled... its practically the same thing they're doing now anyway...
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1:33 AM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
it wouldn't be right if i say FilCosplay vs. PinoyCosplay... it is even more inappropriate to say or even think that there is a rivalry between the two forums... but its only true to say that mike abundo copied the format of the FC forum then created his own forum... aside from stealing the name (pinoycosplay is actually a yahoogroup formed way back, even before all the cosplay hype reached this point), mike even had the nerves to pattern his forum to that of FC's... if you do not believe me, check out the pinoycosplay forum then move to Filcosplay to see the similarity... i know this is really late for me to react on the issue... but to come to a point that he already attacks certain "celebrities" of the community just for people to notice him? goddamn it, abundo... you're pathetic! an example of this is how abundo put up a link of hazel's LJ (of progeny fame) in his blog, specifically an entry about her work... he made it appear as if hazel was deliberately attacking her employer... so what's the point of doing that? goddamn it, you jerk... if you need publicity, you don't have to do it in other people's expense! sure, this entry could actually end up as a link in your blog since its all about you... yeah, you and your crap-size mental ability... i don't know what your game is but it sure is one heck of damned stupidity... show up in one more convention and i'll make sure the cosplayers will not let you out looking the same way you went in...
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5:25 AM
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
this one's for you, plushie... SeparatedUsher If love was a bird Then we wouldn't have wings If love was a sky We'd be blue If love was a choir You and I could never sing Cause love isn't for me and you
If love was an Oscar You and I could never win Cause we can never act out our parts If love is the Bible Then we are lost in sin Because its not in our hearts
So why don't you go your way And I'll go mine Live your life, and I'll live mine Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine Cause we're better off, separated
If love was a fire Then we have lost the spark Love never felt so cold If love was a light Then we're lost in the dark Left with no one to hold
If love was a sport We're not on the same team You and I are destined to lose If love was an ocean Then we are just a stream Cause love isn't for me and you
So why don't you go your way And I'll go mine Live your life, and I'll live mine Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine Cause we're better off, separated
Girl I know we had some good times It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye Girl you know I love you, I can't deny I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I I know it hurts so much but it's best for us Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry It's killing me so, why don't you go
So why don't you go your way And I'll go mine Live your life, and I'll live mine Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine Cause we're better off, separated
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9:01 AM
Monday, April 10, 2006
i have regained the top spot as fc's top poster! no, not the poster that you put up on the wall... yeah, i have finally regained the top spot after losing it to sephiroth last summer... i am 11 posts ahead of him as of now and i intend to increase the lead all summer as long as my pc cooperates with me... and as long as there will be topics for me to reply to... hehehe... in other news, i have just made the decision that will change my life forever... dramatic? no... its actually serious... just imagine how much an impact it has on my life to decide at such an early part of my life who i want to spend the rest of my life with... i'm only 19, with lots of years ahead of me... but then again, when you're sure, you're sure... i just hope this won't turn out to be another foiled wedding plan of mine... lately, i've realized that my eyesight's failing me like hell... damn it, its all fucked up! its been giving me headaches recently, meaning i need new glasses... this, my friends, is the consequence of staying up all night chasing sephiroth's post count...
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5:56 AM
Monday, April 03, 2006
rey mysterio's the new wwe heavyweight champ!! the title doesn't fit him though since we all know that rey's only a cruiserweight... come to think about it, that actually makes a good storyline... batista's coming back to the wwe and of course he will try to regain the championship that he simply turned over due to his torn tricep... now, rey's the new champ and he happens to be batista's good friend and tag team partner right before he took his break... so what i'm kinda confused about is how they will do so... i mean, what twist will the wwe writers come up with? a) turn batista into a heel b) have a little feud spark between batista and mysterio c) let them remain friends and have their title match a friendly match d) have a title match between mysterio and orton then make orton win to face batista okay, those are my guesses, no guarantee in there... as for john cena still the wwe champ... all i have to say is this: how in the world did cena manage to beat triple h?! cena's already getting booed by wwe fans (just check the signs in the audience) and he has no new tricks up his sleeve... he keeps doing the same thing... yep, cena's act is getting boring... that's the problem when you're playing the role of a face... you have to be a consistent good guy, making you boring in the process... i'm hoping triple h will ask for a rematch and have them schedule it for backlash... and this time, triple h will definitely win... i hope...
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2:47 AM
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