i dare not say what happened to me this day... not in my own words at least... well, just read the lyrics of the song below and if you know the song, you might as well f*ckin' sing it...

"Down With The Sickness" - Disturbed

Drowning deep in my sea of loathing
Broken your servant I kneel
It seems what's left of my human side
Is slowly changing in me

Looking at my own reflection
When suddenly it changes
Violently it changes (oh no)
There is no turning back now
You've woken up the demon in me

[Chorus:]
Get up, come on get down with the sickness [x3]
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me

I can see inside you, the sickness is rising
Don't try to deny what you feel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems that all that was good has died
And is decaying in me

It seems you're having some trouble
In dealing with these changes
Living with these changes (oh no)
The world is a scary place
Now that you've woken up the demon in me

[Chorus x2]

(And when I dream) [x4]
No mommy, don't do it again
Don't do it again
I'll be a good boy
I'll be a good boy, I promise
No mommy don't hit me
Why did you have to hit me like that, mommy?
Dont do it, you're hurting me
Why did you have to be such a bitch
Why don't you,
Why don't you fuck off and die
Why can't you just fuck off and die
Why can't you just leave here and die
Never stick your hand in my face again bitch
FUCK YOU
I don't need this shit
You stupid sadistic abusive fucking whore
How would you like to see how it feels mommy
Here it comes, get ready to die

[Chorus (last line changed to "Madness has now come over me")]

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now, let me just quote evil groobs...

"I rarely go down here these days . . . so I've only learned of this now . . .
So he's gone . . . shame . . . he was an interesting man . . .




All I can say about this life and death thing is . . . well . . . I would not encourage
you to end your life for any reason. . . I would not discourage you either. . .

Ignoring faith . . . ignoring morality . . . ignoring the stupid rules of man . . . .

Your life is yours to do as you wish . . .

No one has the right to tell you how to live, . . . why the Hell should they tell you
how to die . . . specialy those that cannot really do anything for you . . ..

We are weak. All of humanity is. Most of us aren't so strong or so lucky to be able
to crawl out of the holes that we fall into. . . Holes we dig. . . . Holes dug for us.
Sometimes, . . . you have nowhere to go but down . . . .


. . . . .sometimes it's ok to give up . . .







So . . . have you hugged your friends lately? . .. "

something to think about...