an excerpt of the conversation i had with my cousin this morning...

les: nagbibiro ka ba?
me: do i look like i'm joking?
les: miss ka na daw niya eh...
me: *just kept quiet*
les: mahal mo pa siya, ano? hahahaha!! mahal mo pa nga!! nami-miss mo rin siya!
me: *grabs les by the collar* shut the fuck up if you don't want my fist to land on your face!!!!
les: eh bakit di ka makasagot?
me: i don't give a damn about her anymore... i'm happier with...
les: anak ng tokwa! may bago ka na? kayo na? kailan pa?
me: you don't know her... but she isn't my girlfriend yet... but i love her... i really love her...
les: mukhang kailangan kong makipag-kita sa kanya ah... kunin ko na yung engagement ring niyo...

i don't want to be remembered as "the guy who dies because of stupidity over love"... i'm way over that... enough is enough and i'm outta that phase/stage of my life...

i'm already happy with the one i'm with right now...

the period of crying is over... its time for me to smile...

got this from the record-breaking 15 hour online time:

her: *sniff* bihira lang may taong mas matangkad sakin within two years na agwat ng age namin
me: haha!
her: tiptoe na lang ako
me: no need to tiptoe
me: i'd go on my knees for you
her: O_o
her: ano ka ba....get up...
her: *whacks you lightly* kaw ha. walang ganyanan.
me: bakit?
her: josh. walang sira ulong lalake ang gagawa nun para sakin. pero nakaktawang joke time
me: eh di sira ulo pala ako
her: .........
her: *twitch*
her: ......*sigh* josh....what are you doing...?
me: me? aside from thinkin about you?
her: are you kidding me? sabihin mo totoo, no lies.
me: i'm not lyin!
her: *blink* sure?
me: yeah
her: .........
her: *sits beside you*
her: ano to? nanliligaw ka na ba?
me: ako?
me: ewan ko...
her: *tilts head* ewan ba? haha...
me: bakit?
me: wala lang.....i just...*stares blankly* dont see what's worth loving about me. really.
me: you don't see it?
her: no.
her: meron ba?
me: yeah
her: ano yun?
me: you yourself
her: me? tall gangly thin anorexic psychotic underachiever me?
me: there goes the low self-esteem again
her: *twitch* right.....cant...help it.
her: myself ba..?
her: *laughs softly*
me: yeah, yourself...
her: ...*smiles gently* di ko akalain yun.

and since josh has finally learned the meaning of pain, this will be a different lover boy version...