after more than a month, my school life's all fucked up... more than half of my professors hate me for being the jerk that i am and i'm gonna get an FA sooner or later because i always come to class late...
yeah, late... i haven't been cutting classes that much lately... for a change, i guess...
things back at my place ain't doing so good either... my folks are still on my case, especially my mom... what can i say? she'd rather have me rushed to a hospital because of overfatigue than to let me stay at the condo because she'll miss me...
pretty selfish of my mom, huh? maybe she doesn't realize that her favorite son hasn't had any sleep for the past month, is about to turn into a walking skeleton (i hardly have time to eat) and will soon die if this continues...
what the fuck am i gonna do with excellent grades if i end up dead anyway?
i've been thinking about that a lot lately, especially when i'm on my way to school... and when that thought comes into my mind before i go to bed, i can't help but glance at my "stuff" - the guns, knives, blades, my lighter... you know what i mean... but of course i dismiss that idea immediately...
still, i can't help it...
good thing my plushie's around to keep me sane... she's the only reason why i'm still here... and the things i'm looking forward to doing with her...
*insert evil laugh here*
okay, i'm just playing... sorry, must be the effect of listening to malice mizer songs...
namely...
Beast of BloodThe future dyed in fresh blood... my tortured senses
Place of silence, moving shadows
Crimson eyes are strangely gleaming in the darkness
Madness starting to awake
Playful desire starving of blood
Get down limitless night
Beast of Blood
Along with the scream from the death throes
Sharp claws are shining brighter
Dually obscene breaths continues
And rips apart the silence of the night
Crossing the uplifty night
Get down limitless night
Beast of Blood
The scent of blood intertwined around my breath,
Floats about the air on this night of esctasy
The future dyed in fresh blood... my tortured senses
The scent of blood intertwined around my breath,
floats about the air on this night of ecstasy
Beast of Blood
No fear, no sadness
Lofty life is tasting loneliness and eternity
And near by the target with no more life
Red drops on my greedy lips
Falls down on the freezing ground
Get down limitless night
Beast of Blood
Spills blood on me 'til it fills my body
The scent of blood intertwined around my breath,
Floats about the air on this night of ecstasy
The future dyed in fresh blood... my tortured senses
The desire gushing out of the cold body is wet with red blood
Screams of desire resound on this night... my senses throb sharply
The scent of blood intertwined around my breath,
Floats about the air on this night of ecstasy
The future dyed in fresh blood... my tortured senses
Beast of Bloodjust a bit of S&M on my part, i guess... haha! a bit... yeah right, josh... haha!
